I’m such a linear thinking person. My brain says “here is the problem, assess the problem, fix the problem, now you’re done.” I really thought that when I put my scale away in the back of the closet I was done with it. Problem solved. But as my counselor reminded me, weight loss doesn’t work like that. It’s not a fixed thing to check off my list. It flows and ebbs. The real issue that I needed to attack was that I was obsessed with a daily morning weigh-in that typically upset me and made me feel like crap. Putting away the scale allowed me to break that bad habit. I’ve successfully done that. Weighing myself doesn’t even cross my mind in the morning. And if it does, I’m able to quickly dismiss the thought.
So, five months later I’ve pulled the scale back out of the closet as a form of accountability. I’ve decided to weigh myself once a week on Wednesday. So far, since the first of the year, I’ve lost 5 pounds! Maybe next month, I’ll need to put it away again or maybe I’ll only need to weigh myself once a month. Who knows? I’m just trying to get comfortable with the fluidity of the weight loss process.
I try to look at people who are successful at weight loss and maintenance. Of course my favorite blogger is Roni. She understands and accepts the ups and down, sometimes she tracks her food, sometimes she doesn’t. Sometimes she weighs weekly, sometimes she doesn’t. Sometimes she gains three pounds sometimes she loses three. But overall she is very good at maintaining her 80 pound weight loss and adjusting as needed. I’m coming to terms with the fact that I won’t ever be “fixed,” I won’t ever be “done.” Losing weight will always be a daily process that requires some new techniques and some old. What works, constantly changes. We can’t grow (or shrink) without change…. What works today might not work tomorrow, and I’m learning to be okay with that.