I Lost How Much?!

Last night, my Shopping Cousin that lives down the street stopped by my house. I had just finished eating broiled tilapia, wild rice and vegetables for dinner. As soon as she saw me she said “Wow Cuz you’re losing weight!” Instead of my typical, response of “No, I’m actually gaining weight,” I confidently told her “Yes, I’ve lost 10 pounds.”

She said, “No it’s more than that, I can tell.” I was doubtful, but I just said “okay, we’ll see tomorrow, I weigh myself on Wednesdays.” I wasn’t nearly as scared and anxious about this morning’s Wednesday Weigh-in. I wasn’t terrified about stepping up on the scale like I had been for the last few weeks. I accepted the fact that I have been working hard at eating healthy and I’ve been hitting the gym regularly. I drastically reduced and almost eliminated sweet desserts that I love. So, regardless of what the scale said, I wasn’t going to let it distract me from my progress and make me feel like I wasn’t successful. I hopped up on the scale (still naked of course, but usually I tip-toe on the scale as if that will make me weigh less.) After I stepped on my digital scale, I sighed “oh Gosh it’s broken” and I stepped back off. I got back on and it showed me the same number. Hmmm, maybe that was right… I waited for it to reset back to zero, and stepped up for one last time. I completely freaked out, and screamed “I lost how much?!”

I couldn’t even do the math that fast. I was trying to remember what it was last week, no, that couldn’t be right, could it? Well, I guess it could be right, I have been on top of my game. I actually lost 5.8 more pounds this week. Bringing my total to 15.8 pounds lost since the beginning of the year. Wowzers… I really had to stop and thank God for sending me my counselor. She is slowly but surely plucking out the ugly pieces that held me back for so long. The main thing that she is teaching me is to give myself the same amount of grace (being nice, even when it may not be deserved) that God gives me and that I give others.
We are going to do this weight loss thing y’all…are you with me?!