I kind of have writer’s block. Well not really, I just don’t know that I can write anything “inspiring.” It’s not like I’m eating real bad or not working out. I went to the gym yesterday and got on the elliptical for half an hour. I mean I really got on it. If you could “run” on the elliptical I did that for about half of time I was on it. I was good and sweaty by the time I was finished. I am talking wet t-shirt sweating. I would have gotten on the treadmill too, but my knee was bothering me a little after going so hard on the elliptical. But the problem is I just feel stuck. I’m like the weight maintenance queen. It’s like I can’t lose any more weight. I lose 2 lbs then gain 2 lbs and repeat. That’s the cycle, and I’m tired of it. I’ve lost tons of inches and can fit better in my clothes, and people always say it “looks like” I’m still losing, but I just feel like I’m not. I’m super happy that I haven’t gained it all back; because I’ve certainly done that before. In college, I lost 48 pounds with weight watchers, I became comfortable with where I was physically, and I thought “Yay! I’m finally fixed.” I slowly started slipping back into my old habits and gained it all back and then a lot more. That was the long hard way of me learning that obesity is a disease that constantly has to be treated with proper nutrition and an active lifestyle for well… for forever. It was so hard for me to accept that. Most things you fix, and it’s fixed and that’s it. But not with weight loss, you “fix it” and then have to do maintenance every single day. And that’s it, there’s no magic juice, pill or plant. Just hard work and a strong desire to keep working at it. I honestly think feeling “sick and tired of being sick and tired” is a good place to be right now. That’s usually when I decide to do something. When I first started losing weight, I was sick of not being able to wear sexy shoes, sick of buying size 24 clothes, sick of getting winded just walking one flight of stairs, and sick of just feeling gross. That’s when I decided to do something about it. Right now, I’m sick of maintaining and seeing the same scale numbers over and over, and I’m ready for something new. I know that means being real with myself and writing down everything I eat, and hitting the gym or the track even more. In order to change you have to get “uncomfortable.” Now, there’s nothing to it, but to DO IT! Hmmmm, maybe I didn’t have writer’s block after all… LOL!
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