When I did an analysis of my proven successful weight loss habits, I accepted the importance of tracking and having weekly accountability and support system. But, more importantly, I’m learning the importance of the internal behaviors that must change to be successful. I’ve shifted my focus from “trying to look good” to striving towards mental and physical health. For the past few days, I’ve been working really hard to stop saying bad things like (I’m fat and gross, I’ll never lose weight, and it’s too hard.) Because I told myself all of those things every day, they became reality. So, I’ve adopted a new positive mantra. I was watching Joel Osteen, and praying that God gave me a good word of encouragement to show me I’m on the right track. And, what do you know, Joel told the story about a guy who lost over 100 pounds, and started by changing his words. I’ve tweaked it a little for me, but each morning and all throughout the day, I remind myself, regardless of how I really feel…
“I weigh what I should weigh, I’m active, I’m healthy, I’m dedicated, I’m focused and I have what it takes.”
After a few days of positive self-talk and acceptance, I felt better, and I had the courage to go back to Weight Watchers. As soon as I walked in, the meeting leader greeted me with a big “Welcome Back!” and told me that she didn’t close out my file. It was like she knew I’d be back. There was no judgment as I stepped on the scale 15 pounds heavier than I was last time. I explained to her my apparent denial of where I know I’m supposed to be. When I text my Mom and told her I was at the meeting, she was happy and said she would cook healthy meals if I gave her some recipes. It was sad though that one lady was too heavy for the scale. She was probably over 400 pounds. But, they treated her with the utmost respect and discretion (I’m just nosey and was sitting in the back near the scales.) I really hope to see her back next week, and it actually encouraged me to see that if she was brave enough to come to a meeting I had no excuses. The meeting was great. In the new 2012 program they are putting more of a focus on mental and emotional health needed to successfully lose weight. Their new slogan is “Believe.” I’m on my third day of tracking my food, and tracking is actually making me feel good and in control, and not like cruel and unusual punishment. On my home, I thought I’m so pumped, I’ll lose 100 pounds this year. Then I had to make a conscious effort to scale it back and redirect my focus.
“I weigh what I should weigh, I’m active, I’m healthy, I’m dedicated, I’m focused and I have what it takes…..” What’s your personal slogan?
P.S. my huge court trial at work got canceled! Bad for our clients and the firm, but great for my blog and fitness routine. Back to life as normal.