I realize that not all of you are fat, but some of you are overweight. Please don’t take offensive. I’m actually posing the question to myself. Why are you fat Carli? I figure deep down inside there must be a part of me that enjoys carrying around the extra pounds. It sounds ridiculous, but logically, there must be something about it that I like holding on to…. My little sister and I were sitting around while we were supposed to be going to gym and starting discussing our weight. It was so odd that she had the same reasoning that I had. She said there must be something about it that we like, if we continue to stay like this.
I saw a specialist on Oprah a few months ago and he challenged us to answer several questions about being overweight. I casually, yet honestly jotted down my responses as I watched that episode. I was shocked to go back later and read them. I decided to share them with you. I’m spilling my guts, but that’s what I always do here.
Question 1: Why Am I Overweight?
My answer: Because I feed my emotions, both good and bad with food. I enjoy eating and don’t like asking for help or feeling like I can’t do it by myself. I don’t like things that can’t be permanently fixed or finished.
Question 2: Why Do I Want to Lose Weight?
My answer: I want to be comfortable in my own skin, I want to look in the mirror and like it. I want to live my life to the fullest and not be judged because of my size. I want to be my authentic self.
Question 3 Why Am I Not Successful? (The most revealing question if you ask me)
My Answer: Part of me feels like maybe I don’t deserve it. I constantly fight it; rebelling against eating healthy. I’m frustrated that there is no “Finish Line.” Honestly, I’m also kinda scared. I wonder if I lose all the weight and become a perfect 10, then what? What will I do with all the emotions I currently shove down with food? Will I become a smoker? A drug addict? A mean evil person? I don’t have any solid answers, just random thoughts going through my mind. This post may not make sense to anyone but me. But, if it does make sense, feel free to leave a comment and let me know what you think.
Have you ever asked yourself these questions? If you are beyond your happy healthy weight, and the scale yells out mean things to you, why are you still overweight?