I woke up this morning feeling kinda blah. I got the official word that I wasn’t chosen for the other position I interviewd for last week, and that put me in a funk. I’m a borderline work-aholic. I like to work, and sitting at home is making me crazy. But, ironically enough, today I didn’t want to leave the house and I didn’t want to exercise. The only activity I did all day was move from the couch to bathroom. I watched TV and took naps all day long. By about 8pm I felt miserable, just laying there on the couch. I had called the little sister to go work out with me and she agreed, but I never got up off the couch. I felt stuck and depressed. I said I can’t blog about this, I’m supposed to inspire people, not tell them I sulked all day in front of the TV. Then I remembered that story.
The one where the lady sat on the couch for years and her skin grew into couch because she sat there for so long. That story haunts me. I can imagine that she felt like I felt today, and then it just spiraled out of control. That totally freaked me out. I got up immediately. I was hungry but still didn’t feel like cooking. I went outside for the first time all day and went to KFC and got grilled chicken. I came home a new person. I can’t become the 480 lb lady stuck to the couch. I have to figure out something… I looked over the bookshelf and pulled out The Purpose Driven Life, and Joel Osteen’s “Become a Better You.” I read a little bit and felt much better. I was letting my job, or lack thereof, define me as a person. Reading helped me remember that according to God, I’m much more than an unemployed paralegal. The books helped me focus on my true purpose and potential. I don’t know what it is yet, but I do know that I will NOT become self-infused to the couch. Tomorrow will be a better day.
What Did Carli Eat Today? (Not too bad…)
B- Bowl of Raisin Bran Crunch, 1 Egg
L- Steak and Chicken over salad
D- KFC Grilled Chix, Green Beans, Biscuit, and Dt. Pepsi
S- Yogurt Shake (Yogurt and Ice in the Blender)