depressedI woke up this morning feeling kinda blah.  I got the official word that I wasn’t chosen for the other position I interviewd for last week, and that put me in a funk.   I’m a borderline work-aholic. I like to work, and sitting at home is making me crazy.  But, ironically enough, today I didn’t want to leave the house and I didn’t want to exercise.  The only activity I did all day was move from the couch to bathroom.  I watched TV and took naps all day long.  By about 8pm I felt miserable, just laying there on the couch.  I had called the little sister to go work out with me and she agreed, but I never got up off the couch.  I felt stuck and depressed.  I said I can’t blog about this, I’m supposed to inspire people, not tell them I sulked all day in front of the TV.  Then I remembered that story.

  The one where the lady sat on the couch for years and her skin grew into couch because she sat there for so long.  That story haunts me.  I can imagine that she felt like I felt today, and then it just spiraled out of control.  That totally freaked me out.  I got up immediately.  I was hungry but still didn’t feel like cooking.  I went outside for the first time all day and went to KFC and got grilled chicken.  I came home a new person.  I can’t become the 480 lb lady stuck to the couch.  I have to figure out something…  I looked over the bookshelf and pulled out The Purpose Driven Life, and Joel Osteen’s Become a Better You.”  I read a little bit and felt much better.  I was letting my job, or lack thereof, define me as a person.  Reading helped me remember that according to God, I’m much more than an unemployed paralegal.  The books helped me focus on my true purpose and potential.  I don’t know what it is yet, but I do know that I will NOT become self-infused to the couch.  Tomorrow will be a better day. 


What Did Carli Eat Today?  (Not too bad…)

B- Bowl of Raisin Bran Crunch, 1 Egg

L- Steak and Chicken over salad

S- Almonds

D- KFC Grilled Chix, Green Beans, Biscuit, and Dt. Pepsi

S-  Yogurt Shake (Yogurt and Ice in the Blender)  

  1. I remember hearing about that story a while back. I’m a paramedic by trade… I get to see the morbidly obese and similar situations all too often unfortunately. 🙁

    Good that you found some inspiration from it but don’t beat yourself up for being human and actually feeling a little depressed about not getting the job you wanted. Being an inspiration also means showing that you feel the same dull, grey feelings as the rest but having the strength to battle forwards…even if that is after falling off the bandwagon for a day. Grief is healthy and helps to build the resilience with which you have been gifted! 😉

    • Thank You. That’s what I figured, I’m only human, and everybody has a sucky day every once and a while. When I was reading, it focused on how God allows us to have struggles, so that we can learn to perservere, and perservance leads to character and character leads to HOPE!

  2. I think we have all had days like that, and there’s nothing wrong with being honest. I wish you the best in your job search! Thanks so much for the podcast, I swear its the only thing that keeps me going with the running. Without your podcast I would the excuse that I don’t have a stop watch, or I don’t have time to go to the gym and do my runs on the treadmill. So you have taken away my excuses and for that I am forever grateful. Thanks mucho!!!!!

    • Awww…thanks for the support, its always refreshing to know that I’m helping someone else. I’m on my way to the studio now to finish weeks 8 & 9! Yay!

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